so yah this is a run on frm my last blog. U kno about how I feel like shit around my family. Well ima go deeper into the subject and yee just to let it out. Rawr so first of all I would like to say I feel like shit. Cuz how can u not feel like shit wen people treat u like u are. I swear I feel like im freakin Cinderella but I never got to go to the ball but instead got suck in the pumpkin rotting. I swear like every day im not at school my mom has me clean and clean im ok wid it and I kno ima clean but wen she says that im lasy and don’t clean I just get fuckin pissed but I don’t show it.
Rawr I swear and then wen I clean its never good enough for her shes like u didn’t do this. Like for example she would tell me to wash the dishes and then wen im done shes like why didn’t u fix the food and put it on a smaller plate then cover it or why didn’t u clean the whole kitchen, im thinking I was only supposed to was the frekin dishes!! Omg u know what pisses me off the most is that my brother never has to clean ok he has school every day and he has football I give him that but umm I have college and its like 10 times as stressful as wutever he has and my mom always gets mad at me wen I sleep in well I frekin sleep in because im so drained frm being at school im at frekin school for like 14hrs or more!!!
Idk theres more that I wana tlk about but rawr im just so like stressed I cant think. I swear u guys I haven’t told ne one this yet but I been having really serious chest pains and its been getting harder for me to breath. I wake up because I have hard time breathing and sometimes wen I drink I feel as if needles are stabbing me frm the inside. I have a feeling I have some kind of condition but I don’t wana get it checked n I know my family has a history of people dieing frm heart attacks so w.e. we’ll see my family probably would be better off with out me, they could probably use the dish washer to replace me. Lol I kno im being fuckin emo but how can I help it. Rawr I wish I had the money to move out and get away frm this shit, I swear wen I move out ill never come home. Been my dream since child hood, go to school get a good job pay back my parents then never see my family again after that. I mean I always had another wish but ill tell u that personally its kinda really sad =P
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