journal entry #1

So this is going to be my first journal entry lol. I haven’t done one of these in so long but I feel like today is a good day to do it. Today is my 19th bday and I think it is time to turn over a new leaf and start anew. But before I do that this journal entry will be on my last few days of being 18.

Being 18 has been one of the most interesting years of my life. College started for me at SFSU and was very life changing. It helped me accept myself and also introduced me to many people who I will always cherish and want to keep in my life.

This past year has been a crazy year for me with a lot of stuff up and down. But I feel as if all in all the last few days have been the best days of my 18 year old life.

On Friday was the start of the best days of my life. Friday June 12, 2009 was hella fun. The day started with me taking my Mama to her appointment and after that we went to the mall to pick out my bday gift. Lucky me my Mama bought me a new laptop in which I am typing this on right now. I love my Mama so much and always will lol I guess u could call me spoiled but she does it with good reason. After getting my gift me and my mama went grocery shopping and went home.

Once home I didn’t have time to rest because it was fuz!!!! Omg this was the best fuz ever all I have to say ill put more details in another journal entry lol.

Any way so b4 fuz I picked up a few friends [chris kris alton javiz] and met up with beat and vi at the club =] also at the club I met up with my pace loves from sf aka new core lol =P and I also met up with who I now call my mongoloids lol. Fun night meeting new people and hanging out with all my bday boys [Andrew Javiz Josh] it was one of the best times I ever had.

Lol after the club me and my mongoloids went to ihop to eat where were had hella fun being loud and crackin jokes. Lol this is where I got closer to my mongoloids lol =] they really made my day lol. Even though there was some moments in that day that wasn’t so great lol WOMP

Any ways so yesterday lol I was playin ragnarok with kuya kc and I get a call form Stephanie lol and she asked me if I wanted to kick it wid her and the mongoloids and watch a movie. Lol being stuck at home all the time I said yah sure why not. Im glad I did go lol it was perdy fun. We went to go watch a dance flick which wasn’t so great but it didn’t matter. After we went out to dinner at rose café because it was their last day and Anton payed for dinner I btw thanks! and it was hella fun there kuya kc kept on drinkin peoples drinks lol on accident cuz he hella fails lol. Ooo I hella forgot I finally met mister olay after knowing him for like a year lol.

Well after dinner we just chilled in bens car for the longest time and then went to tutti mellon. When we were in there kuya kept on sayin hi to every one that went in because he knew like everyone lol. And finaly I seen someone I knew but I didn’t really go up to him lol cuz I was into my froyo. But I remembered that his bday was today to so I told kuya kc to txt him and tell him that kuya Andrew and I say happy bday. And kuya txts him and he comes over and says thanks lol and we introduce him to Andrew and he leaves lol. And I was like ooo this boy just forgot we have the same bday and few min later he comes over and is like its ur bday too right and im like yah and hes like lol happy bday. After that he left and and we left and chilled in bens car again

Then when we were in the car we were all talking about how cute this person was and we were like omg hes right there smoking! And we kept on teasing Andrew cuz he thought he was cute. So we called aron over and talked to him for a while and met his friends lol while teasing Andrew lol. After aron left I told kc to txt aron and tell him Andrew thought he was cute and he did lol and also I told kuya to txt aron Andrews number which he also did. And guess what it was a successful hookup by me =P n ways after that we went home and I chatted wid some people and now its 2:20am lol and im typing this.

I would like to say thanks to these people for sayin happy bday lol during this lovely morning of my bday:

bianca
andrew
yven
ading
marc
butters
bryan
tashi
tori
alex
stephen
cris andrea
beatrice
ryan
stephanie
victor
ben
tonichi
kc
ate prax
joannah
vi
anthony msj
maan
donna
carina
steve pham
susana
jennifer
francis
philip
lauren not

thanks to every one and happy bday to all the june babies =]

cant sleep

so its like 11:38 n i hella cant sleep =[ soo ill just talk about this past week.

Omg school is like so killer right now. PCN and Internship started so my life now revolves around PACE. It is all worth it though because i know in the long run I'm going to get a lot out of these 2 things =]] Lets talk about internship first. So the first day was perdy good i guess it was fun, but it felt kinda stuffy at first >.< idk every one didnt seem to nice at first. Then the second day it was kinda worse idk maybe cuz there was hella old interns there and i felt more comfortable with them. lol but by the third day yay it was fun!!! lol this internship is gunna be fun, our group of people seem "different" idk how but yuh lol i have yet to memorise everyones name but that will come eventually.

rawr nvm ill do the rest later lol =]

Rain Anxiety

today was a good day i guess, it was kinda chillay at school but not that bad. today i was supposed to present my speech but sadly that didnt happen. omgee u dont even kno i was so ready too. ne ways i got hooked on this new game called jelly blocks durring my hella long break and that helped me kill time.

i dont really remember much of what happen today. lol i txted my new frnd eric who was hella afraid of taking his tests today lol. and when i got home we chatted about the randomest stuff. but there is something that really has me worrying. I am scarred for my families health, more specifically my brother and I.

Ever since we were little me and my brother had asthma problems but it was never all that bad. well a month ago my brother began to have really bad asthma attacks and has a cough that wont go away. idk what is wrong with him but hes goin to the hospital tomorrow to get himself checked. i hope hes ok.

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Alwayz and 4ever

L.C.

failure of a blog lol

hmm so i been neglecting this thingy right here and that's hella bad because i promised myself i would write something every day. Any ways so this morning i did not know what time to wake up lol my timing was so wrong because my dad didnt leave for work yet. so i stay in bed till like 6ish idk i dont remember. Anyway after that i went to go wash my hair because my shower is still broken =[. After brushing my hair i went to my room and tock out my sewing kit and sewed the bottom of my pants do it doesnt drag on the floor. it turned out really good, but it was still kinda to long so i have to redo it tmrw morning.

after getting ready i went to school wid bee, and may hopeing that it was going to rain really hard because when i checked the weather online it said there was a good chance of a thunderstorm. sadly it was nice day to May's liking lol but it was hella chilley. ummm i went to all of my classes lol which were ok i guess. critical thinking hurts my head especially cuz my teacher is so unorganized.

after school we all stayed and waited for the PACE internship meeting. i was hella juiced lol you dont even know. The meeting was hella fun and i loved how beat hella had us play the machine game lol. i really hope i could dedicate my time to internship, because it is realy one of the main reasons why i wanted to go to sfsu.

so wen i got home i was straight up bored lol. i was supposed to write a speech but i got it all in my head omgeee its gunna be good i hope. I'm about to put hella energy into this speech. lol back to what i did while at home... well i made lil vids for people on FB lol cuz i was hella bored. they all perdymuch turned out failures.

ne ways i dont wana write no more lol.

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Alwayz and 4ever

L.C.

haircut brehs!

before:




now:

weird pics

so recently i been really bored, i think its cuz i havent been talkin to all the gay people i used to lol. so now i have hella time on my hand. well wen i have time on my hands i make hella weird pictures of myself. plz dont judge me wen u see it i was just bored....

No need for a valentine all i need is to find my exception =]

so ima just write hella quickly about yesterday. first off all me and may only went to one class and that was interesting but the fun part happened after school. to lazy to go into detail and also i kinda forget lol. ne ways all i have to say is im tired of being the rule and want to be the exception for once =]

dream journal #1

so i hella failed at tryin to remember this dream but i know it was hella dramatic and had to do with me, my frnds from state and i guess i had a date in my dream o.0

So this is what happen me and my date went on a date and like we kicked it and had a fun time, it was like the perfect date like in the movies. the dream i thought was hella like one of the best cuz it was so happy. but then the next part of the dream happend... so like in this next part i was kickin it with my frnds from state in my new apartment that i just moved into with some of my closer friends. and i noticed there was hella tension in the room but i was scared to ask. eventually this one guy i used to talk to who is one of my frnds now hella snaps and starts yelling at me and like putting me down. and im like what did i do and when i said that everyone else in the room started to attack me too to the point where i was crying and didnt know what to do. then the person who first attacked me told everyone thats enough and they left. and as they walked away though the parkin lot i guess for some reason i ran after them askin what i did to make them mad why do they hate me so much.

and i like collapsed in the parking lot and one of my frnds who was with my group of frnds that just like hella messed me up emotionaly came back and was like sorry i really didnt want to do this but "_____" [my frnd i used to talk to] told her and everyone else they had to and that he told them that i changed. after that i just remember crying because i knew i didnt wana lose those friends cuz in that dream it felt like they were the only ones i had. then i woke up crying =[

idk what this dream means. maybe because i was talkin to my ex b4 i went to sleep and i did a survey about moving in with friends.... idk

sumday#1

i think this is my first blog of 2009 lol i kno i hella been slacking with this blogin thing. Any way so 2009 ima try to blog daily and try to blog twice in a day lol. The first blog will be about my dream the night b4 if i remember it and the second one will be a sumary about my day =].

anyway i forget my dream i had last night so ima just write a quick summary about today.

SumDay #1

so a SumDay is a Summary of the day i write it lol so here it goes =] yesterday i hella made a list of stuff i needa do today and was hopeing to finish at least half of the list. but really i only finished like 2 lol. i was suposed to clean the outside and inside off 3 of our 4 cars but it started to rain so i only had time to clean my car =] since it started to rain i washed the dishes so that was off my list and also fixed the wii fit lol. after fixing the wii fit my mom and i exercied for like an hour. that perdy much sums it up boreing day like always.

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Alwayz and 4ever

L.C.

How many of us have them

tehe so jw do u kno the song called "how many of us have them (friends)"

you kno the one with the lyrics:

Friends-how many of us have them
Friends-ones we can depend on
Friends-how many of us have them

these lyrics have been ringing in my head for a while now lol n it makes me think... how many of us really do have true friends? like i said in my last blog i believe outside of my family i have about 3 ture frnds lol not so much but thats what i really feel. these 3 i kno i could get on their nerves somtimes but they atleast tell it to my face that they r bugged by wut im doin so we could work out our frndship. i was watchin fruitbasket and wow its such a good anime i learned some good stuff. i learend that even though people praise you and say all these good stuff that dont mean that they really are your friends =/ frnds are people who well tell u what your faults are and help u through them mhmmm not just let u go on doin the wrong thing.

idk i think ill make this my 1 semester college blog too and how it opend my eyes. there are some people who are your "friends" in highschool and they tell you no matter what i will do my best to keep our frndship strong. but now that i went through college i feel as if they are the ones pushin me away to make room for new "friends" idk if this is just being jealouse but i feel as if as much as i try to keep the frndship its kinda not worth it...

Any ways i did meet some awsome people that cant really take the part of my old "friends" every one you meet has a place in your life that could never be replaced. this could work in 2 ways you have people who affect you in a good way and people who effect you in a bad way or both. lol wut ever imprint they leave in your memory it will never go away even if they add another memory the first will still be there. and i feel like umm the people that i met helped balance out the negativity i was feeling.

any ways home alone again washing cloth and cleanig =P
happy hollidays =]] ill write my new years blog soon =] 2008 has effected me so much its not even funny lol ne ways...

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Alwayz and 4ever

L.C.